"You're a Winchester"

"You're a Winchester". Probably one of the BEST endings ever in Supernatural. Because it sums up all of Dean's reason for living. The problem as I see it right now is he's finally reached the point of no return as far as he can see. I've never known him to be this despondent for himself. As I said on Twitter when he says he's not good or fine, it's pretty damn bad. My baby has lost the ability to see there's hope out there and it makes me feel incredibly sad. Yeah, I cried myself to sleep again last night. Dean Winchester has made a life out of surviving, just because that's what he does. He keeps going but that was when he had his family, more specifically Sam to take care of. Now that it's him that needs the care taken, he doesn't know what to do. Bless his little Winchester heart, he has no history for someone looking out for him. He's always been the care taker. Let's take a minute to say how awesome Sam is right now. He's grown up. He's not selfish or trying to get out of the life. And Henry would be proud of his grandson the Man of Letters. I should say grandsons but Dean doesn't really think of himself that way;,He thinks Sam is a Man of Letters and he's a grunt hunter which isn't true. Although he did refer to himself once as a man of letters to Magnus."...and men of letters ourselves".) The dedication Sam has displayed this season to helping Dean, curing him, saving him and plain old loving him and letting him know he does has been amazing. The hugs we're all dying for? In my head canon, they are there. Still, it'd be nice to see one right ladies? That ending really gave me hope, in spite of that vacant, lost, desperate look on my man's face in the fade to black. Sam really believes he can save Dean as surely as Dean has always believed he can save Sam. And that is what makes them Winchesters. It's not the brave acts or the hunter skills or the Bunker. It's a legacy of men who loved their family so much they were willing to die for them. I confess I used to think and say, Sam doesn't love Dean as much as Dean loves him. I realize now of course the roles they have had have influenced the way they have loved. Dean has brotherly and parental love for Sam. Sam has brotherly love for Dean. It isn't his fault Dean had to also be a parent figure.But he gets it now. He realizes that this is the time for him to step it up like never before. If he loses Dean now, he may never get him back. I have always loved Sam. I'm a Dean girl of course, but "There ain't no me if there ain't no you" and  all that. I guess what I really want to say to Sam is save him. Love him back to being Dean again, prove to him he IS a powerful force, that he can live with it if he has to. Maybe all I want to say to Sam is "You're a Winchester" because I truly believe that's enough.