For Better or Worse

We are deep into Hellatus. I have had some time to work through some of my feelings. I have had a really hard time with the finale of all finales known as Season 9. Yes, I grieved and cried maybe more than I'm truly ready to admit. I doubt I will ever be able to watch that episode as a rational, sane person. I admit it. As my very dear friend says, "I am in a long term relationship with a fictional character." So how am I coping? With a  lot of help from my SPN friends, with a lot of re-watching, a vast amount of happier fan fic and a lot of looking forward to VegasCon! Also, hugging a special little Dean look alike doll made by my friend Jilly. I still cry, especially at night. I still want to beg the writers to give me my Dean back, at least soon. (Episode 2 is not too soon for me!) But here's what I know....even if he stays a demon forever, I'll still be in love with Dean Winchester. Do I want that? No! I shy away from all black eyed pictures, am not a fan of the "posters" going around on Twitter. But here's the biggest lesson you learn from Supernatural....you love people they way they are. That goes for the characters and well for us, the fans. I don't always agree with everyone's ideas about what should happen but I respect their right to love the show and be excited about what gets them. I won't stop loving Dean if he stays Demon Dean. But if I get one wish this season....please give him back to us. He's our hero. He's the rock we count on. We need him the way he was. So, to my fictional boyfriend... I love you for better or worse.....I do. But if Adam and Robbie read this....PLEASE....give him back with pretty green eyes....