Saving People

I stumbled into a conversation on Twitter of a girl who was talking suicide. Her friends were doing their best to reassure her. She seemed pretty desperate, even told them how she was planning to do it. It went minute by minute and it stopped and I found myself crying. I'm no stranger to suicide..not m personally but someone I really truly cared about with my whole heart committed suicide. This did not appear to be one of those Twitter hate things we're all so worried about...just ...life was hard. And it occurred to me that these were all Supernatural fans comforting her. I followed her to kind of keep watch and I'll tell you I am concerned because there's been nothing for over an hour. I pray someone intervened and she's ok. Saving people is the theme of our show. It's something we see from the brothers but also we hear countless stories from fandom that this show saved them. I get this. I do. because it saved me. I was at a point where I felt I mattered to no one, was a complete failure and at a cross roads of where my life was going. I wasn't suicidal. I was just lonely and sad. Then there was this show and these characters and some fandom friends and things got better. It wasn't really that simple. It still isn't. I struggle every day with my image of me and who I am. I do. And I've been accused of using the show to escape reality. Yes and no. Yes sometimes it's easier to just hid in their world. But no because so often, I find a way to get back in the game from that world. My real point here is to say It's a Winchester thing...."as long as we're alive, there's hope". If you see your fandom friends are down, encourage them. If it gets really bad enlist their other friends. This fandom has so much more to share than ugly tweets about which characters you love/hate etc and silly nicknames cast members have for each other, it's about being family.And as our very wise Uncle Bobby said, "Family don't end with blood". I'm going to check in with my SPN besties and let them know I love them. I hope everyone else will do the same.And maybe find a few new friends along the way.