Social Media and Hate.."Not on MY Boys You Don't!!"

It's Jday at VanCon! One of my besties is meeting the guys for the first time and I am happy for her! I seriously want to be there. Hugging Jensen...but I'm not. I'm following it on Twitter and thru my two buddies who are there. And what I'm concerned about is people tweeting hate to the Supernatural cast and writers. I have said this so many times before but here it goes one more time. If you don't love it and accept it the way it is, you can change the channel!!!  I don't usually comment but I told a particularly rude person saying hateful things about Jared to please stop. She replied "dude, we're just having fun...I often insult people I love....it's how I roll.' You insult people you love?? I reported her for being offensive and abusive for several insulting remarks on her page. Then some B*%#@H says the show and one of the writers was bigoted.Again, DON"T WATCH if you are unhappy.I am very happy with my show and I am very attached to these writers and LOVE these actors. I think it's just plain wrong to tweet hate and especially to @ the stars/writers in your tweet. They are working hard. They are people with feelings and families and friends. I am not a fan of many shows but I'm not tweeting hate to them or their writers.And most Supernatural fans are as protective as I am. But I'm just saying, if you are abusive and you show up on my TL, talking about my boys, I WILL report you and block your mouth.

Of Fangirls and Cons

It's coming up on VanCon and while some of my nearest and dearest are going, I am not. I wish I was. I'm all ticketed and booked for VegasCon but 204 days until that wonderful party starts seems a long way off in the light of this weekend. It makes me feel a little sad and left out. You know, until my own big deal Supernatural gig comes up. It made me stop and reflect on cons and what they do for a fangirl.Creation Entertainment does a great job of giving us exposure to our stars. I remember saying "It's a once in a lifetime thing." YEAH RIGHT. Barely 4 hours in I was so addicted and coming back next year! Cons are special. They have a this-is-the-only-real-world feeling. Nothing outside the hotel really matters. Because in "real" life there is no Supernatural, no chances to hug up to Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki, no basking in their glory. But more than that, there is a community. It's easy to feel isolated and not really believe there are actually people out there as crazy as you are. I mean social media helps but seeing and feeling that energy really confirms you belong to something more than words can express. Look, I know cons are expensive. They just are. But it's worth it. You don't have to start gold although you'll want to after you experience it. Start with General Admission or preferred seating if it's a better deal for you. They have a new copper level for Vegas this year that is like preferred seating plus. I have gotten a lot of tweets from fans who see my icon and say Oh you met Jensen! I never will. I really encourage those fans to start saving up. There are so many ways to experience the Cons. There is something so special at being able to be involved in this community. It's the stars yes and they are ALL inspiring wonderful folks, but it's the other fans, the shared experience that hypes you up. It shows you the devotion every single person attached to this show has. As a fan you will feel loved and appreciated . You will laugh and enjoy it more than I can tell you. There will be tears but they are bonding and you'll probably hear something kinda like your own how-Supernatural-changed -my-life-story. You'll see stars hugging people, hear them thank you for taking a picture with them.( If you're like me and the Jensen Effect hits you really hard, and you can cry but not speak, you might have the experience of him telling you it's going to be okay and not let them move you along until you are, all the while patting you and looking at you right in the eyes with concern.) It will be something that validates your whole fan girl life. It's like  religious pilgrimage.

When I go to VegasCon this year I will have close friends to share it but last year I knew exactly two people when I went and one of those was my daughter. So. One other friend who I only knew from Twitter. But everyone was talking to each other as if they had known each other forever.It was incredible. And for the record? My Twitter friend? SO one of my best friends in the world and mainly because we connected on Twitter about going to a con. My point? Try to do it y'all. At least once. (if you are strong enough to say once.) You won't regret it. Then you'll be waiting to hear from your pals as they go the ones you're not at! But if they're as fanfriggintastic as MINE they'll make sure you're covered with con fun!!

Day 86

It's been 86 days since my fictional boyfriend died. I still feel the loss. I rewatched  Blade Runners this week and I cried. What has happened to that cocky sweet boy who loved his father, his brother, his car , burgers and pie? Why did life have to treat him so harshly? All he wanted was a home, a mom, a nice girl to love and kids of his own. Instead he lived 30 years in crappy motels and his beloved car, lost every person he ever loved and survived more injuries than any person should have to. And yet he still hung on. He still felt he did more good than bad and he still would do anything to save his brother. He rid the world of countless things of evil, saved the planet once or twice and with little or no thanks form heaven or hell. Sometimes with no thanks from the people he loved the most. He did love and deeply. He shied away from "chick flick" moments and yet he cried and touched and hugged and was  not ashamed when it happened. He literally spent his life taking care of his little brother.So why would a boy like that deserve to die so brutally? He didn't. The fact that his last words were to praise his brother and admit his own worth is almost more than I can bear. I know he'll be back. Somehow a boy like that with a brother like the one he raised will be saved.It has to happen. I am counting down the days.I will embrace the Demon Dean story. It's Dean, and he's still somewhere. But the day I will celebrate is the one where I can tweet Dean Winchester is saved...again! I miss my boy. I miss that smile and the dreamy sweet look in his eyes. It's been a hard year plus 86 days for me and my guy. But I/m holding on. Until we see this Dean again: