On "Immaturity" and "Fictional Character" Love

Yeah I'm not telling my come back story from depression ( which I haven't had )or  sharing my all too real life front row seat with the  depression and suicide of a loved one (which I have had and don't want to comment on publicly ). No. I am talking about how some fans called me and others "trivial" and "in need of a life" because of "tweets about a fictional character". So get this. I admit I got upset when the CW tweeted Dean Winchester "always" acts immature. This is as far from true as gets. This is a man that never had a chance to be a child. He wasn't allowed to be "immature" not by his father, the life he lived or the fact that he practically raised his little brother who I might point out is only four years younger. Which means at ten he was caring for a six year old, often alone for days on end.My guess is he wasn't "immature" even then. I tweeted a "can't believe you said it" to the CW. So did many others. Was the comment really meant as a statement about his sense of humor? His lack of knowledge about some topics he might have missed being a responsible person while others, including his brother...who I adore so no one attack me as slandering Sam....knew about because they weren't in charge of a family all the time? Was it meant because sometimes Dean's portrayed as in Home as "not the sharpest tool in the shed?" (I HATE Missouri btw for saying that) or because he tries to find some sense of lightness occasionally in his otherwise dark world?  Aside from a few pranks on Sam back in S1 I don't remember "immaturity" on Dean's resume. I see a guy who is barely able to get through on a good day but manages to anyhow. I see a guy who despite any personal physical or emotional pain always puts his family and their needs first. I see a big brother who even though his own dreams never seemed to matter takes great pride in the accomplishments of his little brother. I see a man who would and has laid down his life for that brother. How is this immature? I guess I'm feeling a little angry here. I admire Jared more than I can say for his stand on and campaign for To Write On her Arms. I admire and appreciate it for many reasons personal and in general. I admire fans for being brave enough to share their stories.  I am thankful Jared is an amazing human being that has inspired so many to open up, to feel cared about and to be encouraged to help others. But I've also seen people saying  that Jensen's shirt wasn't for as good a cause even though it hasn't been mentioned what it was. I've even seen jokes about Jensen's shirt. THIS  I do know. It was for a charity. He didn't spend the proceeds on a vacation for him and Danneel or stick in JJ's college fund. Seriously people have to believe he supported a good and worthy organization with it. And  the "immature" Dean barb just seemed like fuel to my little anger fire. Again, I adore Jared. I support him and this cause. He is beyond wonderful.  I guess maybe at this point in my life, I may live more heavily in Winchester world than other people do. I am working through " I don't know, my own grown up, personal crap". I probably don't have a "real" life the way others define it. Doesn't mean I'm trivial. And as for caring for a "fictional character", I do. So. I love Dean Winchester. It's not a secret. I've never hidden that. I have framed pictures of him in my bedroom. I cried days on end when he died and became a demon. I  suffered through that as if I had really lost the love of my life. You can laugh. You can say I'm immature. I don't care. I don't think I'm alone in this one. I defend my love of him ( and Jensen) daily. But why should I have to ? Who am I hurting by loving a "fictional character?" No one. And if I get riled up at the CW or anyone else saying my man is "immature" so be it. I know better than to engage in tweet wars with( I'm sorry,) bitter Sam girls, or oddly Dean girls who I perceive don't "get" Dean but I do it anyway. Probably because I'm a little like Dean himself. You can't insult the people I love and me let it go by. Honestly I didn't really start the controversy I engaged in. I participated because I saw someone else trivialize what I thought was a big deal. So I got my own self into the little problem I'm currently having. maybe y'all think you have "better" things to do. Good for y'all. maybe you have "better" worries. Great. I have plenty. Yeah. I may have avoidance issues. I hide in Winchester world. Sometimes I like even their dark places better than mine. I don't tweet that I'm better than other people though. I just state my own opinions on my own timeline. And I'm "mature" enough to realize that if I put it out there someone will likely disagree. Which is okay. I guess where I'm going with this is this: Supernatural has very strong and talented actors who make the audience feel. More so than any other show I know of past or present. These are characters so well written they are real. How many people have you read about saying it changed their life? It did mine. Dean did. I saw myself in him. I wasn't near death. I wasn't hurting myself or anyone else. I was lonely as heck, scared of being alone and feeling like no one cared about me. And I have people who do love me but this is how I saw it at the time.I had had more struggles than anyone else I know. Seriously I am a poster child for Murphy's law. If it's weird and can happen to you, it will happen to me. Dean Winchester was someone I could connect to. Someone I could understand fully. So I fell in love with him. It's probably 100% certain there will never be a "real" guy in my life ever again. I'm not exactly what most of them are looking for. But there's Dean. And it makes me happy. He's my hero.And it makes me proud to say I love him. I don't feel trivial. I'm proud of us. And so proud of  Jensen. He has made this man real to all of us. There are days when I would prioritize differently  too I guess and I didn't want to offend anyone so I got off twitter and started blogging this. I still think CW needs to admit Supernatural is their most successful show and realize the fan base is hugely protective. My guess is they will after what I've seen! So, me and my "fictional character" boyfriend are okay because we both know he's not immature. We know where he's been and we'll go where he's going with courage and dignity. I suppose I just want Jensen to be recognized and for Dean to be validated. That being said, I cannot be more proud of BOTH our boys. We are so fortunate to have these men as our heroes on and off screen.